Friday 24 December 2010

The Dawning of the Great Light



'There will be no more gloom for those who were in distress
For the people walking in the darkness have seen a great light;
On those living in the land of the shadow of death a light has dawned.
You have enlarged the nation and increased their joy;
They rejoice at the harvest as men rejoice when dividing the plunder.
For as in the day of Midian's defeat, you have shattered the yoke that burdens them,
The bar across their shoulders, the rod of their oppressor.
Every warrior's boot used in battle and every garment rolled in blood will be destined for burning,
Will be fuel for the fire.

For to us a child is born, to us a son is given.

And the government  will be on his shoulders.
And he will be called Wonderful Counsellor, Mighty God
Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace
And there will be no end.'

Isaiah 9:2-7

This is why we celebrate Christmas - for no other reason, purpose or person.
I don't ever want to forget what was given to me.

Saturday 20 November 2010

Lilith

Travelling abroad has meant I have had many hours of waiting in transit at airports and passing time on the plane itself. I have a fascination with books and find myself side-tracked just by the mere sight of a bookstore and I absolutely must walk in, even just for a quick browse. Books hold so much within them and if you find a good one, it can be like making a new friend. This also makes it hard when you turn that last page and realise your acquaintance must come to an end.


                                          Lilith is one of these such friends.

Having reached the end of an epic ethereal journey along side the cleverly named character, Mr Vane, I was consequently guided to read this line of text on the last page.

''Man dreams and desires; God broods and wills and quickens. When a man dreams his own dream he is the sport of his dream;
When Another gives it him, that Other is able to fulfil it''.

I cannot tell you how deeply this statement penetrated my heart, but it was in there! Sometimes the simplest words can speak so profoundly and they can come through many vessels that seem so unexpected.







Lilith - George MacDonald

I immediately felt released from striving and having to decide exactly what my dreams are and foretelling how I am going to make them happen. By just being, abiding and living in His presence I am promised a dream to be given to me as I take a deep breath, listen and wait. It's almost like a gift, and the burden of it is free and easy. And as a bonus, it will be something that brings true happines!

 All I can say is I am excited to unwrap this gift and see what it is.

Monday 1 November 2010

Little Britain

This week saw me venture into the western English heartlands - Gloucestershire. I was to finally meet some extended family on my dad's side who I came to hear of from my Great Uncle, Sid, and it was arranged through a few sporadic phone calls that I would stay with my distant cousin Sue and her family within the small village of Upton St. Leonards.

Sue and her husband, Nigel, were so welcoming considering I was this strange young man from a distant land that they had only read about in books, and my four days within their care was such a special glimpse into the life of 'Little Britain'.


Thatched Roof

This village I was seeing was like no other town I had seen. It felt as though it was another time zone with the Old English architecture and thatched-roofed homes, blowing a constant display of silvery smoke from their brick-based chimneys. I found myself humming the theme song to 'Heartbeat' as I was enevoloped by the scenery. Shetland ponies and horses grazed unending pastures and vegetable alotments were observed at every turn.


The flaming orange of the autumn leaves and the darkening wood of their host gave life to the cool green of the distant hills. As we walked the inner, outer and even greater roads of Upton St. Leonards for more than two hours one afternoon, I discovered Nigel's talent for recalling the elements of the village life history and other interesting pieces of information including how Liz Hurley's farm was situated nearby and  how his mate Terry  managed  to 'build this house here with his own bare hands' - which I thought was an impressive achievement!





 Another interesting fact to be pointed out was that the owner of the Kraft food company lived in this village and being an Australian and a lover of all things Vegemite, I captured this piece of gold on film.

                                           
                                           Mr. Kraft's House



But looking beyond the 'fame' of the village inhabitants and the inconceivable greenery that lavished itself on my eyes, I was most blown away by the fact that Nigel could walk past each of the village residence and comment aloud to the effect of
'Oh, there's Tony reading the paper at his breakfast table. He'll do that all day, he will!'.

And the frequent verbal melody of
'Good Morning, You alright then?' to each passerby, addressing the individual on a first name basis, but never stopping long enough to have a proper chat.
This neighbourhood familiarity was something I found remarkable and came to learn how normal it was to the people of Upton St. Leonards.


                                            Little Cottage

Chatting with Sue provided an even deeper scope into village life and how her and her best friend, Rose, have been apart of each other's daily lives for over thirty years! Both Sue and Rose are avid Skittles players and I was able to witness a Tuesday night match of brutality and force as these middle-aged women hammered down the line these rusted metallic bowling bowls in the hope of obliterated the 9 wooden pins at the opposite end. It was loud but good fun to watch and proved a good excuse for friends to meet and gossip about the previous week.

This sort of lifelong comradery was a common theme here and I soon came to understand that no-one really appears to leave Gloucestershire if born and raised here.

The men, including Nigel, meet religiously every single night for several pints and games of pool at their local club next to the grand old sandstone church, and my first night's stay saw that I got to experience this ritual first hand. It was this night at the club, to all of Gloucester's disbelief, I had to disclose my lack of taste appreciation for beer or ale. However, Nigel's generosity insisted I was well taken care of in regards to other drink alternatives (I have never drunk so much diet pepsi in one night) and the warmth and acceptance I received from the club made my first night really welcoming. After a few pints, the banter between these good mates had a habit of escalating, peaking until someone went too far with the joke and then subsided again with a chorus of laughter once more. This pattern of verbal cross-fire would continue for hours until 'Last Drinks' was called around 11:30pm by Jackie from behind the bar.

The mood was always light-hearted but as Nigel disclosed to me in his under-the-influence state walking home that night, each man knew the life trials and victories of the other and would clearly give up their own most treasured possession (probably beer!) to help their mate.


                                           Gloucester Cathedral

Other highlights of the trip was the visit into town to see the Gloucester Cathedral where many kings and queens and valiant knights were laid to rest. Another personal touch for me was to discover Gloucester's connection to the author Beatrix Potter. Her complete works edition was given to me by mum when I was young and seeing her gift shop reawakened my remembrance of the joy of reading her tales and how I used to imagine I was actually Benjamin Bunny - but a little less mischievous!

Since visiting the shire, I have also developed a new found addiction to add to my many others - Carvery buffets! These consist of all-you-can-eat roast turkey, gammon and beef as well as over a dozen different vegetable dishes including sweet potato mash, creamed cauliflower, roast onion and potatoes, carrots, beans and peas and with the option of every gravy imaginable or the more fancy cranberry, apple, mint, wine and cream sauces. And the best part, it only cost 5 pounds or as they say it here, 'a Fiver'.
Eat up, I say!


                                          The First Serving


Like the food, the people here were extremely warm and homely and my breakaway from the high expectations and striving atmosphere of London was something that was needed as an outlet to re-fuel and re-collect myself.

Sue and Nigel have insisted I come back next year just in time for the 'Rolling of the Cheese' festival.
So I told them my love for cheese and curiousity as to what 'Rolling' might entail, may just make that possible!

Tuesday 19 October 2010

I Just Need A Diary

Picture this. Boy sitting at computer eagerly eating breakfast omelette as he prepares to meet his friend Alex for a bit of winter boot shopping. Boy then glances to the right hand side corner of his computer screen and sees '19/10/2010'.


No. He thinks. Oh no. He thinks again. Oh, Please God, no!


But yes. Oh yes!


Boy has missed his flight to Hamburg thinking today's date was in fact the 18th.


One ' whole new flight, an amended return flight and amended hotel booking' later, all is well except a few Euros down the drain. Blah! 


In light of this happening, I made an oath to buy a diary today.


But. 


This is what I arrived home with.


These Killers.

Monday 18 October 2010

The joy set before us

It is finished. The last sentence has been read and the final page has been turned. Why is it that we sometimes feel a little lost after pouring over the last words of a much loved book? Especially, one of life-changing content.

Today, within the walls of my darling Sable D'or cafe, I finished the book, the Sacred Romance. It happened so deceivingly due to the large amount of 'nothing pages' at the back consisting of promotional material for other books and a bibliography that owns all others - I thought I had atleast another few days of reading pleasure.

But it is not really over.

Now that I have absorbed and allowed my heart to breathe in the sweetness of beautiful revelation I am determine for the veil to remain lifted and do promise to never forget.

I love how God truly knows us more then we even know ourselves. He knows that after our hearts acknowledge a desire to change or acknowledge the longing to give ourselves even more over to Him, we can simply forget what we have learnt. This scripture is for those too sway-minded like myself.

''Only be careful and watch yourselves closely so that you do not forget the things your eyes have seen or let them slip from your heart'' - Deuteronomy 4:9.

So brilliant.

Even the poetic George MacDonald of the year 1880 was fully aware how fleetingly we can separate ourselves from the revelation of the all the joy set before us, as expressed in his Diary of An Old Soul.
In an act of boldness and utter desperation to retain the passion he has for the future and the journey ahead, he confidently cries out to God.

''Were there but some deep, holy spell, whereby
Always  I should remember thee...
Lord, see thou to it, take thou remembrance's load:
Only when I bethink me can I cry;
Remember thou, and prick with love's goad.
When I can no more stir my soul to move,
And life is but the ashes of a fire;
When I can but remember that my heart
Once used to live and love, long and aspire - 
Oh, be thou then the first, the one thou art;
Be thou the calling, before all answering love,
And in me wake, fear, boundless desire''

Like what John Eldridge says in the Sacred Romance that the final burden of remembering all the glimpses of God's beauty, His love for us and the joy set before us, does not rest on us.

Jesus is the 'Author and Perfector of our faith' (Hebrews 12:2).

He placed the desires for romance in our hearts, and compelled us to take this journey and even when we take a side road for the short or long seasons,  he has bound himself to see us through.
He even gives us reminders along the journey's way through ''unwrapped gifts and free surprises'' (Anne Dillard) whether they be in the form of a touching song, a beautiful art work, or the re-acquaintance with a smell that evokes a loving childhood moment.

As I continue to journey, I am sure to share my 'gifts' given to me along the way.


Friday 15 October 2010

The Road Less Taken

And so it begins. I have set my coordinates for a two year adventure that only God himself has seen and he himself has walked before me. It is a journey; one of inconceivable occurrences, awakenings, disappointments, loneliness, mistakes and glimpses of beauty that make all the hardships worth the strength needed to overcome them. It is journey; a vessel of self discovery where emotion is to be embraced and addictions and false-loves are to be drawn unto the light where a refining takes place.


This time away will be what it is to be. From here, what is needed for the road ahead is remembrance, hope and faith.
Remembrance of what has already been given to me and what treasures I already have stored within. Hope in that the story is good and He is good. Faith to daily seek rest along this road. In doing so, desire and passion remain awake and they will be fuel for road.


I have started re-reading a book called the Sacred Romance by John Eldridge. Eldridge is more famously known for Wild At Heart and Captivated but his earlier work has to be his hidden treasure. It has guided me since arriving in London, and been a teacher and mentor through many a cold London afternoon, with me cooped up in the corner, sipping espresso at the petite French abode, the Sable D'or. I am so glad I broke my rule of not re-reading a book unless it has been five years since I last read it, because it has been this second time that the words have become a life-blood to me and the scriptures used invaluable to where I am at in this wilderness.

So I blame it's influence on my perspective of  life being a road but it seems the best way for my mind to understand my heart!




I found this illustration which I like to imagine shows where I am at in the journey. Mary Kollman's painting 'The Road Less Travelled' is an example of my road to be travelled. It's use of colour truly depicts the emotion of a journey and taking the narrow path - one that on first appearances is not the most appealing. The gloominess of the steel grey landscape and the coldness of the asphalt path create a sense of hardship and bitterness. However, if there were promises of oases along the way and glimpses of beauty that cannot be seen along any other road, could you not take it? One chooses this path, in understanding that the journey is up and down but the destination is good because the one who has walked it before is good. The yellow haze on the horizon strongly signifies this, eluding to the promise of a prized destination, wherever and whenever that may be. It evokes in me a belief that I would rather live a life on beauty and disappointment than one of neutral emotion and effort.

From here on in, I will post things I feel  are reflective of the hopes and mistakes of my own journey. The glimpses of beauty that make it all worthwhile and the things that challenge me to back-peddle in my tracks.

It truly is an exciting thought to be going on a journey, personal wilderness, and it's something that my structured brain, I guess, is learning to love.  With, of course, the daily submission to my heart. There is no formula for this one, just me and the people, places and things I will meet and see!
HERE. I. GO.